SOUND, MOVEMENT AND MASSAGE RANT
Sept. 2006

Making sounds is such great fun. Just opening your mouth and letting whatever comes out pour through the air, streaming in to the room, with all of its deliciousness. No thoughts about good or bad, just pure sound, just allowing what is there to arise and emerge.

And as the sounds leave the body, the soul is left feeling blessed, sanctified, acknowledged. In the release there is an absolute clarity of vision and perspective, a moment of illumination. And in that moment you know that you are whole, that you are exacty where you belong.

My life is fuller having expressed myself. To some one, or to the wholeness of the universe. We need each other. And we need the truth. So if I smile and say I love you when in truth I am feeling not seen or heard, I hurt us both. The falseness of empty words allows for fear and insecurity. I am saddened by how much 'niceness' fills my day. If I was to tell the truth, to say I am not happy with what is going on, is a risk. My fear is that I will lose connection.

But the truth, that has taken a long time for me to own and live in, is that I have to speak from that authenticity in my belly. And hopefully you can listen. I don't need a lot. Just to be heard. It's amazing. Nothing has to change; I just need to heard and acknowledged for what is true inside me now.

And once that happens, it's time to play! Now we can really be together, in a deeper space. Because you have received me; and now I am yours.

Your heart knows the truth. Both inside and outside. You don't need permission. You just need allowance. Surrender. To the truth that is already there, waiting to be heard, waiting to be expressed.

October 2006

Have you ever looked at the sun and said 'No!'' I have. On days in LA where there are no trees and it's so hot I can't breathe. I want to be back in Oregon, where the sun is tempered by the trees and the breeze.

People know what is best for them. If they take the time to breathe, to look inside. And to cultivate a listening that can hear the gentle murmur of truth that resides within. All will be told, all will unfold.

But the bearers of the truth as stated in the book of selfishness, the truth of money, greed, corporations, is not a friendly truth. Its god is one of selfishness and wrath. My way or the highway.

Navigating the straits of Life's River, as we move into 2007, is brand new. We are living in a world unlike any time in the history of the planet. My studies tell me that the more positive, the more gracious, I can be, the more wonderful my experience will be.

I had a profound awakening a few years ago. I read a study that showed that people with a positive outlook, a 'pollyanna' view of life events, lived 5 to 10 years longer than the average population.

Having grown up in New York City, where I pursued a degree in Math and Engineering, I've always had a very different response to life's events.

So who would you think tends to see things the most clearly' It ends up that clinically depressed people have a much more accurate perception of reality. By reality I mean the colors, shapes, their physical surroundings.

That just amazes me. So there's your choice: do you want to be happy and see life through colored glasses, or right and be depressed'? Personally, I made a choice to learn how to be more like a pollyanna.

On that note, I highly recommend you see 'Horatio's Drive: America's First Road Trip ' (2003) by Ken Burns. It's an amazing profile of a pollyanna approach to life.